Comments on: Brutal Honesty

By: Monica

Monica — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 00:32:02 +0000

Dearest Angie,

Oh how I sympathize with the dread of a hospital visit and all the needles. I have scars up and down my hands and arms and finally had a midline put in my upper arm because my veins were all used up an wasted from the drugs. Oh how I understand about your sweet children and their own fear of what is happening to mommy. One night Delaney called me and began crying and said, “Can you just stay on the phone all night while I sleep.” I am fervently praying for their comfort and peace.

I was reading today in Luke about Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. He prayed that His Father would take away His cup of suffering if it was His will. It says He was full of pain and his sweat was like great drops of blood. I am so comforted knowing that our Saviour understands your feelings of pain and fear. He understands the gaps in our faith, Angie.

Since Delaney was born she has listened almost every night of her life to the Michael Card lullaby CD Sleep Sound in Jesus. I pray this lullaby for you tonight, “Sleep sound in Jesus, my Angie, my dear, Angles are watching, they keep you so near. Know for His sake you’ll be safe for the night. Sleep sound in Jesus, I’ll turn out the light.”

I love you. Monica Kaye

By: edie

edie — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 00:39:52 +0000

My dear dear Angie…what can I say…only that I love you (isn’t it amazing how the Lord can give us His love for someone we see maybe once or many times but we are family) and feel your pain and fear so deeply because I have also been there and actually even continue to struggle to really know how much He loves us, how much He cares about our every need (the big and even the little ones). Why then does He seem so far at times? May I please share with you what I believe the Lord is showing me…(I have not yet grasped though). He wants me to love and NEED Him as much as Rafael loved and needed me. I love this because it’s tangible to me. Rafael, because of the tumor or not, had a childlike faith in His Father and from that faith flowed a love so tremendous and so unconditional that I saw the Father in him and continue to bathe in that love. My dear Angie, thank you for being real and bring tears to our eyes and our hearts –someone once told me that tears are cleansing–ahhh, so be it.
Edie

By: Ruth

Ruth — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 04:52:03 +0000

Dear Angie,
My heart hurts for you and I am praying that God will meet all your needs and those of your family, especially those dear little ones who are so innocent and cannot begin to comprehend what is happening. May God grant you peace in the midst of your suffering.
Praying for you,
Ruth Weaver (mom to Tony-Terry-Tammy)

By: Carol

Carol — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 06:25:48 +0000

Angie,
Sometimes, your words seem to speak my heart, or my heart from a few years ago, or a few hospital stays ago. My kids hurt when I wasn’t with them, (speaking of Cristen and David) but overall, they grew into stronger, and kinder and more understanding people because of what they went through. Your God and Savior, comforter and friend is also theirs, and He is able… Your heart will hurt, more than your veins…
I know it’s so hard…much harder than I understand, because I never had breast cancer-But I also know that “if” you end up in the hospital for another night or two–don’t question yourself. “If” it happens, you “can do that again” because “you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you” You may hurt, you may cry, and you may need help, but you will be able to do it. You are strong, and you will make it. Continue to share, so the body can continue to encourage you when you feel weak. Brutal honest is good. I hope you continue to share in all your ups and downs as there will be more of both. But I will tell you one thing I still try to do, but still fail at frequently…and that is stay in the present-the what if’s are hard and often never happen. What “is” is enough for today. Love and prayers are coming your way. Love to your family, Carol

By: B. A. Schlegel (Kristin Mullenix's aunt)

B. A. Schlegel (Kristin Mullenix's aunt) — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 15:28:53 +0000

Angie,
I read your words with sadness this morning as I remembered my bout with bronchitis and cold sores during my chemo. What a brutal medicine this chemo is! It’s your friend and your enemy. It’s okay to be mad and afraid about all of this. God understands, and He is there for you. Depend on Him. He is taking care of your children and Brian, too. My son Skipper was 8/9 during my treatments, but God has removed most of his memories from that year. I will pray the same for you and for the security of your children’s emotions. It is a dear time to draw close to them and to Our Father. Our church will pray again for you tomorrow and for your complete healing. We love you! “Aunt BA” (Betty Anne) in St. Augustine, FL

By: Lindsey

Lindsey — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 19:59:20 +0000

Dear Angie,
I’m so sorry to hear about your hospitalization. I love you and am praying for you and your dear family. I understand Micah’s pain and fear all too well. These are hard days but we are more than conquerors. Hospitalizations have no hold on you- nor does cancer. Nothing can separate us!

We are hardpressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed. -2 Cor. 4:8-9

…Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day. - 2 Tim. 1:12

Fight like a girl
Lindsey

By: Kim Doyle

Kim Doyle — Sun, 09 Dec 2007 16:31:04 +0000

Angie,
I read this this morning and was praying for you guys. I often am thinking of you and praying for you, and this morning was led to especially pray for Micah. I have a tender-hearted little boy like him, so I can only imagine how your heart must be breaking as you watch him. I was thinking about your snow globe analogy and as I prayed the Lord reminded me that shaking a snow globe is what brings out its beauty. I pray that you will have special grace to watch with wonder the Lord’s Hand in your little Micah’s life. May you be held extra tightly right now! Love, Kim

By: Cristen Sink

Cristen Sink — Mon, 10 Dec 2007 03:16:37 +0000

Angie, I will be praying for you in the coming days. May God’s presence be so real to you in this time; may He comfort your heart, and the heart of those you love. May you feel His strong arms around you, holding you tight, and may you experience His love anew each day.

By: Peter

Peter — Fri, 14 Dec 2007 15:00:42 +0000

Storms of Doubt

While thund’ring storms batter me with sharp waves
Of doubt, which buffet my hope with fierce rage,
To thee I’m bid o’er this dark depth of graves,
Stepping near thee with fear of my presage.
Straight forward I hobble wary with fear,
Yet my gaze shifts to fuming waves around,
And as I lose sight of thine eyes so dear,
I sink into the depths joining the drowned.
And while to darkness my mind is shifted,
I descend to black with nary a hope.
Yet to my surprise, upward I’m lifted
By strong arms to which my frantic hands grope.
Then my Lord inquires of my dark bout,
“O you of little faith, why do you doubt?”