Today was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
Let me just say put it in sports terms. If I am ever watching a certain University play any sport against any other team, I will not root for them. In fact, if college could meet professional in sports, and a certain University played against the Redskins. I would go for the Redskins. And I’m a Cowboys fan. ‘Nuff said.
It was long and it was hard for a number of reasons and let’s just say the quality of care wasn’t up to par.
So I’ll be MIA for a while, but I will have Bri update here as we know more, unless of course the SNOW hits and I have to reschedule everything. Oh, and my mom is coming down with the flu (please pray for her.) Sigh. I am reminding myself God is in the details.
My Little One,
You have been such a cuddler today, so I’ve held you non-stop. Somehow it still seems as if I haven’t held you long enough. Time is passing by too quickly, and I can’t believe you’re already two weeks old. I tell your daddy every day that you’re growing up too fast…
At 3:44 p.m. there you were–all 7 lb. 14.5 oz. of wriggling, crying, adorable baby boy!! Daddy and Bethy both said you were a boy at about the same time, and I started sobbing… I was in love with you before you came, but to finally meet you was beyond description! Our son.
I have spent the last week cuddling and snuggling and holding and praying with these little ones who are so sick. I’ve rubbed feet that fall asleep, massaged legs that ache, kissed fiery foreheads, rocked sleeping bodies, scratched backs, snuggled under blankets, watched movies with three heads on my lap, and slept in beds with them.
Starting Monday night, I will not be able to touch them.
I am undergoing treatment next week for my thryoid cancer recurrence. Because of the nature of the treatment and the high dosage I will be receiving, I will have to be isolated from my children for 2 weeks.
Over a year ago as I walked through the dark tunnel of chemotherapy, I wrote about my tunnels. Months later I entered that blog as a possible submission to Proverbs 31 Ministries to be used in their radio broadcast. It was one of several selected, and last week it aired as a short encouragement on the radio waves all over the United States. You can listen to it here. And while you’re there, go to Proverbs 31 Ministries and check out the wonderful encouragements they offer.
The following post was originally published on November 1, 2007